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updated July 2013


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Anthony Weir

OLDER, BUT NOT YET DEMENTED


POETRY

poems of the month

fish

vagabondage

measuring my face

ostracism

old clothes

modern iranian poems

my hero

face at the bottom of the world

perhaps (maybe)

the diogenes sequence

where to store furs

i am and am not:
      fragments of rumi

destiny and destination

the zen of no-enlightenment

the iraqi monologues

already backwards

a light in ruins

separate amputations

the sexy jihad

awaiting the barbarians

the smell of possibilities

ultimate leaves

rejoice in the dog

post-millennium maggot

dispatches from the war against the world

albanian poems

french poems in honour of jean genet

the hells going on

the joy of suicide

book disease

foreground trouble

the transcendental hotel

cinema of the blind

lament of the earth mother

uranian poems

haikai by okami

haikai on the edge

black hole of your heart

jung's motel

leda and the swan

confession from belgrade

gloss on rilke's ninth duino elegy

jewels and shit:
poems by rimbaud

villon's
dialogue with his heart

vasko popa:
a shepherd of wolves ?

the rubaiyát of omar khayyám

the love
of pierre de ronsard

imagepoem



BETWEEN POETRY AND PROSE

good riddance to mankind

the maxims of michel de montaigne

400
revolutionary maxims

nice men and
  suicide of an alien

anti-fairy tales

the most terrible event in history

the rich man and the leper

disgusting

art, truth and bafflement

 

SHORT STORIES

godpieces

the three bears

three albanian tales

odorous underwear

a little creation story

 

ESSAYS & MEMOIRS

a curious and peculiar
kind of queer

the ivory palace

helen's tower

extortion through e-bay

schopenhauer for muthafuckas

are doctors autistic ?

single track in the snow

never a pygmy

against money

did franco die ?

'original sin' followed by
crippled consciousness

a gay man's guide to soft-willy sex

the holosensual alternative

tiger wine

the death of poetry

the absinthe drinker

with mrs dalloway in ukraine

love  and  hell

running on emptiness

a holocaust near you

a note on the cathars

happiness

londons of the mind
& dealing death to the caspian

genocide

a muezzin from the tower of darkness

kegan and kagan

being or television

satan in the groin

womb of half-fogged mirrors

tourism and terrorism

diogenes:
the dog from sinope

shoplifting

this sorry scheme of things

a holy dog and a dog-headed saint

fools for nothingness

death of a bestseller



Nuadú, God of War


field guide to megalithic ireland

houses for the dead

french megaliths

a small town in france


 

'western values'

 

 

 


 

 

 

 

 

we are all

recyclable

 

Moralists are hypocrites!
(I know, because a moralist am I.)
Religions are more or less
the same concoction.
Truth is the weirdest kind of lie.

 

 

THE MYTH OF COMMUNICATION
a paradox

Language is a
Big Lie
divided into
millions of little pieces
which can be strung together :
an infinity of monkey-kebabs.

I am a poet with a beard
who has little interest in being read
and none at all in being heard.
When you are other
why bother ?

Consciousness is slow, unkind.
We and words are less than wind.

 

 

PLANTS IN MY ATTIC

My lovely, lonely, gentle
grungily-flamboyant
cannabistic-wino friend,
who lives on a 'social welfare' pittance
no greater than my own,
frets about the size and performance of his penis,
is terrified of tenderness,
has a lovely hairy dog
called Bébé, Doudou or Stan,
and grows Grass for his unlimited consumption,
was arrested for driving an uninsured
car without a licence (not his first offence)
- and with THC in his bloodstream.

Upon inspection,
his tattered identity-card was four years
out of date. He is one
of the law-enforcers' more gratifying cases.
Since he cannot possibly
pay the inevitable large fine, he faces
confinement in a centre of correction.
He said to me, sadly, smiling:

"Life is just one long rejection."

 

 

THE DAILY POEM
dedicated to PoemHunter.com

What I thought today
was How fine and fit and fun I felt
in splendid, silent, rural isolation.
This glorious banality was all
that I could find to say.

 

 

"I remember, I remember..."

the scissor-grinder, the pig-swill man,
the buttermilk-seller's pony, the old woman
wrapped in shawls who came once a fortnight
begging at the door;

the appearance of plastic bags and buckets,
emulsion paints and nylon shirts,
vinyl records (45 rpm), pop-up toasters,
terylene trousers, exotic plants,
paperbacks with arty covers,
formica, my early denial of a deity,
the death of Stalin, the end of rationing,

the arrival of tomatoes throughout winter, TV
(which appeared next-door in 1953),
muesli, yogurt, butane in bottles,
Diên Biên Phu,
the Cod War, brown rice, Suez
and Hungary 1956 (which may have been fomented
by the MVD to discredit Khruschev's plans for disarmament)
my first house with an inside lavatory
(which flushed! such hideous waste of water!)
and hot water from a wood-stove boiler,

the first avocados, courgettes, sugar-peas and sweet-corn,
the first wine shop in our neighbourhood,
just 4 news bulletins a day, the start of sport as
hideous industrial circus, jet travel, cheap
foreign holidays,
the loss of words like wholesome,
the creep (post-1971) of the new homogeneity
when way of life turned into life-style,
the death of spontaneity.

 

 

FROM A HISTORY OF CANNIBALISM

When protestant king Henry of Navarre
laid siege to catholic Paris
to gain his throne
as king of France

(this was in 1588)

the starving dug up cemetery bones
to grind into false flour
to make fake bread
which of course could never rise

And a widow of the lesser
aristocracy
whose children died of hunger
roasted their skinny little bodies
and eked them out
over the following fortnight
and eking, eating, sobbed.

Twenty-two years later
the man who murdered the now catholic
and popular king Henri IV
was scalded and then ripped to pieces
some of which were eaten
by unknowns of a Paris mob.

In 1717 a girl was roasted on a spit
in the faubourg Saint-Marceau.
The spit went through her head.

Armies and mobs
are the entertainment
of the evil.
Every army - every human
- is edible
alive or dead.

 

 

But seriously

let's put the record straight
when the multiple history books
come to be written
I guess I'm kind of
you know sort of
in a different ball-park
on a daily basis
in my DNA
as a matter of fact
at the epicentre
of the loo
for a nanosecond
going ballistic
one of a vast
overwhelming
majority
of loved ones
the litmus test
at the dawn of time
when the shit hits the fan
pee and poo
to the Nth degree
on a regular basis
but the jury's still out
in the last analysis
the bottom line
when push comes to shove
in this iconic
day and age:
it takes two to tango
to be honest
all it takes is love.

I could murder a mango.

 

 

GREEN
THE ECOCRITES

What follows is too much like prose
but here's how I wrote it:

It's not the use of one kind of lightbulb over another
(one that no longer makes money for the manufacturers and retailers)
and not the use of machines that are trashing the earth
polluting the air
so much as the exploitation for exploitation's self-aggrandising sake
of animals
- the destruction of forests and bleak monocultures to feed them;
the acquired addiction to meat.

Bottle-banks, taxes on air-travel, recycling-plants
are cynical ploys to ease the infantile consciences
that our comfort and greed allow us to keep.

Our capacity to reason is early on
put to sleep
(this is what education and upbringing seem to be bent on)
and is replaced by childish addiction to optimism.

So, unwilling to see what we're doing,
unable to think much beyond immediate crises,
as the sky becomes more and more like Baudelaire's cauldron,
we refuse to admit that the only possible way
to even start to "be green" and reduce our "carbon footprint"
is to stop having children.

 

 

BACK IN BED

When I rang The Speaking Clock
I didn't get a shock
on hearing "Time is only
part of you that's dead."

 

 

AFGHANISTAN
2006

Eat in the South
and the Russians sweep in from the North
Drink in the North
and the Taliban come from the South
Piss in the East
and the Yanks fly in from the West
Shit in the West
and the Chinese come selling
flip-flops and computers

 

 

 

APOTHEGM

After moving pictures
were invented
we all became
the walking dead.

 

 

ART IS NOT STUFF, BUT HOW YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE

I celebrate
The lovely fugs or fungal smells of unaired rooms
Delicious whiffs of garlic sweat I used to get
in Paris buses
Old books, wet dogs and steaming horses
(and their steaming piss)
Old ladies in old taffeta
Haylofts, rotting bananas
Sheep-wool gathered from barbed-wire
Undeodorised lovers' armpits
The sludgy must in cider-presses
Old leather trousers
Fresh quinces
Ear-wax (whose smell my dog loved too)
Melianthus major and Clerodendron fargesii:
the odour of old pharmacies
Fresh tar or asphalt
Fragrance of chrysanthemums
Foreskins unwashed for a day or two
Attics where forgotten pears have shrivelled
The faintly camel-smell of Balouch rugs
Compost-heaps, the drains of old hotels
Cigars smoked or unsmoked
Sour milk, blackcurrant leaves
Burning marijuana or peat
Freshly-dug and rained-on loam
and my unwrapped, sweet
yet-to-be-recently-dead body underneath.

(Loved and unbeloved all trudge
into death's disputed sludge.)

 

 

ENOUGH IS NOT ENOUGH

Capitalism: the cunning
fleecing the stupefied.

And we all smile
we smile
and we all smile
forced smiles
inconsolably.

 

 

AND ARE WE REALLY MORE ALIVE
THAN THE MACHINES WHICH ARE OUR ONLY PROGRESS ?

John Stuart Mill
and others believed in
The Perfectibility of Man.
But the last thing humans
want to do is perfect themselves -
indeed their civilisations ban it
so we can get on with our business
of wrecking the planet.

 

 

CONSCIOUSNESS MAKES COWARDS OF US ALL

With human reason came irrational
flight from reason to religion and belief
(false linking of effects and their imagined
causes) - and cowardice.
Rats are not afraid of us
who are a hundred times their size
and can kill them a dozen different
dreadful ways - as we can also kill
each other, or at the very least give
one another most appalling grief.

 

 

TOMORROW'S WORLD

When the oil runs out
human genius might
(but probably will not)
be able to tap into an old and trite
and miraculously-inexhaustible
source of energy at last made
planet-friendly: human spite.

 

 

SENILITY

You invented
the World
because
you forgot
you were
God
when you became
Peeping Tom.

 

 

A PORTRAIT OF THE WEEPING MADONNA

Weeping is better than talking.
This is the Instrument of Love defined.
This is the Vessel of the Virgin Birth.
A woman weeping for mankind:
One painted tear is all we're worth.

 

 

MIASMA OF A ROTTING GOD

To breed
is to eat the dead flesh of the innocent within
and ghost-live through the child that's made
from mystic incapacity
and moral void.
Stupidity is faster than wisdom.
Sterilised, I am merely a lesser,
happier infection.
Everything I want to celebrate
is threatened or destroyed.

 

 

 


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DRAFTS, FRAGMENTS,
REJECTS
& JOTTINGS

Anthony Weir

bearing witness to the nothing that is being

 


 

 

 

HOW WONDERFUL IT WOULD BE
TO LIBERATE EUROPE AND THE U.S.A.

Freedom of speech for the religiously wicked
Freedom of thought for the garrulous dead
Democracy for the greedy,
the smug and the obscenely overfed.

 

 

I WRITE A POEM MAGNETIC

composed using a refrigerator magnet kit
without punctuation

The young romantic heart felt true as
pleasure some lovely river singing once
though any lip must beg for gift of skin
every deep dark moon

Voices drink from bloodwhisper
almost soak or burn so slow
to die devoured

I blush in sweeter hunger
am eye aroma ocean candle
dinner sod
away from which my dance of life is over

Come celebrate the glistening creature
as each pure torrent touches
the pale petal magnificent as
morning perfume blows soul not self

But listen secret sensuous wild inspired explorer
a thousand sunwaves boil
exult eternally

Never sacred liquid naked as fresh wine
would touch cup kiss flame and cover hand
and long for love and light
for air fire god

I could always taste time missed withal
my head hard rose feels
my pitmind flower
open broken
haunt that live red star of ache
clutching the unsurrounded universe

I remember the dear hairy man
warm beautiful nectar drunk
soft blaze of cuddle joy
I kissed him and all angels

but
can nothing
good soon
come

 

 

"NOTHING IS AS DIFFICULT AS NOT DECEIVING YOURSELF"
- Wittgenstein

The animals are too good for us:
under the dead moon
we are beyond the Pale of evolution
and of revelation;
we go mad when we see the truth too soon.

 

 

GLOBAL WARMING

The larger the species
the smaller the numbers:
this was a natural law
until we came along.

According to that natural law
we are now at least ten thousand
times too numerous, devouring nature
in our addictive greed and through
our greedy cerebration
like there's no tomorrow.

Sorrow is my kind of celebration.

 

 

LOVE AND LONELINESS

Words are on the surface.
The more words there are
the more we can describe only the surface.
Depth is silent, wisdom profoundly silent
like the sap of trees.
Words buzz on the raging surface
of man's cacophonous experience
like poisoned bees.

We do not connect with the always-connecting animals,
nor can we connect with the things we worship.
The paltry best we can achieve in the panic of our words
is to connect with the idea of connectedness
imagining that we are parts returning to a whole.

Desire is the destruction of the world,
love another stratagem of control.

 

 

DOORS OF ESTRANGEMENT
(a song for the ghost of Jacques Brel)

When you're strange
the glamour
of the world is
always out of range.
You stammer.

People who are feared
are never free from fear,
go very soon insane.
All of us are losers
in a world hijacked by gain.

When you're strange
the douceur of the world
is always
out of range.

Our minds are dirty cages
crammed with beasts in pain.

When you're strange you bite
the barbed-wire of your brain.

 

 

Hair-dye
and lipstick:

one is a lie
the other a slick
cheap trick.

 

 

FUNDAMENTALS

There is an Islamic saying:
"When a dog barks, angels flee"
- which does not say much for angels
or their inventors.
Nor can one pray where a dog has been.

As Oscar (who never barks
and never licks anyone but himself) lies on
a beautiful Balouchi prayer-mat
waiting to go and run
among the sycamores and cedars,
I consider how comparatively tolerant I am
even to talk to carnivores and breeders.

 

 

THE WIDTH OF EMPTINESS

The Roman poet (Horace) said
a poet should tell the truth with wit and humour.

But nobody's really interested in truth

and with all that has been said and done
truth is not a lot of fun.

 

 


"...good people do a great deal of harm in this world."
- Oscar Wilde (Lady Windermere's Fan)

 

 


The lone, stunted tree
on the long, dreary street
is not pathetic
- but glorious.

 

 

TO THE HYPOCRITE POLITICIANS

So why did you not call for
Three Minutes' Silence
for the raped of Rwanda
the butchered of the Congo
or the incinerated of VietNam ?

 

 

GETTING OLDER
(Life is such a deadening experience)
March 2004 - September 2006

The twilight of life
seeps like bad poems
through the cracks of our failure
the downfall and darkness that we
call culture, humanity - ruins of being
through which only lamentation can pass.
Grief is the window beyond all walking
and soon the talking will turn
to spittle
and cease
and all worldliness
and world-as-lie.

Writing my poor, bleak
poems which nobody reads
(not even I)
is every bit as vain as
worshipping an infantile
dream in the sky.

Death is possessiveness.
From the heights
of despairing there's no descent.
I can hardly inspire.
Each breath is a stupefied sigh.
The destructiveness of Man
is the banal frivolity of Why.

What I write is not so much mission
as witness that the beginning of terror
is not so much beauty
as mind.
And isolation - floating
with butterflies in the stomach
above the abyss of stupidity -
is not so much loneliness as loss
of what never was but cry...

 

 

GUAYCURÚ

No word for 'must' or 'have to'
No ownership
or punishment

and no incarceration
for any creature
nor art nor manufacture
which are blasphemy
as terrible as man's proliferation

And no name that does not change
and no name to a face
No kingdoms of regret
nor republics of sleep
nor ministries of sickness,
theft and lies and death

No shame in stifling a starving child
nor stopping an old man's breath.

Where 'human life is sacred' millions die in war and genocide
and the rich get richer
and the world becomes the wilderness
the hypocrites and warring rich call peace

and I am dream
and sex is just as
infantile as religion

and human soul is nothing but
the human wilderness within

(Human, all too human)

*

Life is just another word for pain,
and deadening.

*

 

ZAÏREASTER POEM

Three million people died in the recent
Congolese wars, but no-one around here
or indeed in most of the armed-to-the-teeth world
seems to know or to care
(just like Rwanda)

though they are outraged when I suggest
that nobody important was crucified in Judæa that week.
Jesus, immured by a disappointed Peter
became even more cadaverous
before he was taken out to be disposed of
as my neighbour would dearly love to dispose of me.

 

 

Language is our existential prison

Doctors will do all sorts of shocking things to a person
for glory and money or just for the hell of it or out of 'duty'
They will irradiate you, put electricity through your brain
give you terrible drugs, remove parts of you
and rip out the organs of animals
to put into you - but for no money will they rid you of words
not even by simple lobotomy.

Trapped in their horrible system
they'd rather confine you to their medical prisons
than help you escape the prison of words
whose walls are like waves through which none
can pass into wisdom.

[Optimism = infantilism, voluntary blindness born of words/language]

 

 

THE UNGRATEFUL LIVING

Either we are alone
in the Universe/our brains
or we are not.
Both situations are profound cause for profound thought

by the only stupid animal
the only celebrating animal.

Our rarest attribute is honesty.

All descended out of Africa
from a Hottentottish Eve
we are terribly inbred and, until our end,
there will be no end to our diseases.
We golden codgers who melt the world
are melted only by sentiment and loss.
Every human was - is - deadly,
even Gandhi, even Jesus.

For consciousness is more than we can bear
and all our games, drugs, gadgets are failed escapes.
Art, religion, money, war, marriage, laws, progress,
nationality are attempts to squash it
into something we can manage.

So we confabulate ourselves into moral
and cerebral virgins: barbed hymens guard our brains
to stop us understanding just what we are:
the only stupid animals
(always celebrating our stupidity)

who, with our machinations and machines
remake ourselves as robots of desire.

Being hyper-autonomous
I am acutely aware that I am not person but process
- and yet also an island accessible only at the highest tide.

The self-invented, self-enhancing soul is only self
is only consciousness: continual neural, virtual masturbation
- or perhaps a deadly virus
strangely untraceable in its location.

The Chinese Emperor
who built the Great Wall
had everything that was wrought or written before his reign
smashed upon his pavement or consumed by flame
so that he would be thought
the only source of civilisation.



Thomas Jefferson recommended to the State of Virginia that 'sodomitical women'
should have the cartilage of their noses pierced with half-inch holes
as punishment.

_________________________


The Eighth Deadly Sin: to be alive.

_________________________

 

GOD AND ETERNITY ARE FRACTIONS OF NOTHING
21st April 2003

The most dangerous animal
is an animal that's scared.
Civilisation makes sure that
most humans are mostly fearful -
which is why there is no such thing
as power for good.

The swallows arrived today.
Flitting, swooping, chittering,
each weighs no more than a letter
and, feeding, feeding, flies each year
from Ireland to South Africa - and back.

You'd think that
the only superstitious, the only
worshipping animal

would worship swallows
or Arctic terns who fly from pole to pole,
instead of a foreskin-collector in the sky -

would celebrate superhuman
swallows instead of 'human spirit',
'human courage', 'human heroism'
and other sickening, self-congratulating
hum
bug !

 

 

GLAD THAT I CAN NEVER KNOW
EVEN MY FATHER'S NAME

"The more conscious we are, the more mechanical we become."
- John Gray, in STRAW DOGS


We have no Own Beyond
(consciousness of consciousness is only words)
so death, and life outside our consciousness
are such a problem for us
(the only accusing, the only stupid animals -
the only contemptuous, therefore the only contemptible of beasts)

that we lie to ourselves all the time about everything.

We lie to ourselves that people like people, really,
deny the astounding evidence (lest we're struck dumb
by admission)
that there is no limit
to the contempt in which civilised people hold one another -
while the animals forgive us our unforgivingness
right up to their extinction.

Blinded by dreams and crippled by freedom
apparent or fetish, science and progress also are
religious dream and delusion - and not only because
they are hopelessly ranged with or against
the Christian delusion, the Christian denial
that the only salvation is acceptance that there is no salvation.

The only knowledge is that there is no truth.
The only truth is that there is no human wisdom.
The only human wisdom is that there is no hope
(the worst evil in Pandora's Box).
The only hope is our extinction.

If there was ever god, he died of shame.
If there is one, he, she or it is utterly shameless,
despicable Dionysapollomoses
Madness is also believing that you are not -
or are - mad - for belief is madness, denial of facts
(though facts are no more 'truth' than belief is).

Here in this culture soaked in selling and sex
we fancy we're free, masters of world and our fate
and not slaves of accident, roll of Darwinian dice,
Sixth Extinction, rapacious destroyers of all life and mystery,
crowing aloof, internecine, over poison and squalor
and world made only of money and trash that money
turns everything into - here in this unstoppable sink,
where, swamped with and stifled by information
almost nobody knows how to think.


 

A mythical soul is no substitute for a tail.


 

 


MORE JOTTINGS

 

Ephemerica rules the planet of the dead.


In French the words 'auteur' and 'hauteur' are indistinguishably pronounced.


Depressed people do not kill themselves - because they simply haven't the energy/motivation.


Socrates, Pythagoras, Plato, Hippocrates,
Æschylus, Demosthenes, Xenophon, Archimedes.
Pædophiles are now beardless.

 

Fuel prices go up in the forecourts
They are forging the weapons of spite
Brecht in Hell! - let it all start crumbling
- preferably tonight!

 


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OLD WORK IN PROGRESS - CUT AND RE-ASSEMBLED
AND NEITHER FINISHED NOR TRASHED
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Though quietude deux and sharing,
food and wine and music, plants and stones
are the best of pleasures,
solitude is the most
delicious, least of sorrows.


Uniquely, what Man puts into life
is Death - while seeing his 'soul' as sanctum
and not slaughterhouse.

Trapped in our private catastophes of comfort
we only seem to live:
comfort, even more than consciousness,
makes criminals of us all.



...hovering like pale moths between madness and sanity.
Madness is what fashion-doctors say it is;
sanity: what business makes us buy;
consciousness: the madness of not being
but wanting to be: new rot in new wood.
We are no more alive
than the machines that are our only progress.

The only problems are human - and
the human problem is the problem of scale.
T
he outer darkness is much more inviting
than the inner one. What people call

'the miracle of life' is really the malignance of existence,
a very expensive and consuming hotel.

Why should we need reasons for suicide
when life for those whose consciences are open
is the only Hell ?

 

 

"In cold blood" - the cold blood of war and punishment
and especially punishment of hot-blooded acts.




Artifice and ruin,
structures of deceit and self-deception,
are the processes of civilisation...and things decay
because the Universe is expanding. When it
eventually starts to collapse

time may run backwards - and will we resurrect
and return to wombs, to seed, to ponds
to everything reducing into nothing
absolute nothing
which is what we fear death might be ?


Religion's tissue is refusal to confront reality
- which places us lower than all other animals.
Religion (which is blasphemy) is just another
great fault in our horribly faulty design

The only problems are human - and
the human problem is the problem of scale.

 

 

THE DONKEY-MILL

Madness is what fashion-doctors say it is.
Sanity is what business makes us buy.
Life has become the madness of not being
but wanting to be: new rot in new wood.

Because sanity has made us suppress
the primordial in us
and wipe out as much of the natural
as our mad technology is able to, I lie
like everyone else on the terrible edge of the clothed machine,
half-strangled by Ariadne's thread, watching the donkey
walk round and round, all day, every day for her whole life
to feed the arrogance and shamelessness
that come when the primordial goes.

Donkeys have trodden mills for thousands of years.
There are no memorials for the millions of horses
that died in the First World War - for the propagation
of madness. We are no more alive
than the machines that are our only progress,
and we even think we are more free
than corn milled by the donkey in her misery.

 

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